It’s been such a long while since my last post but I just felt this strong conviction to share my heart with you & the importance of being in the Presence of God.
As I had this song on repeat today I couldn’t help but be reminded of the night when I entered into God’s Presence with the hopes that He would make a way for something I was believing in Him for.
Oftentimes, we’re going and going and going and we rarely stop to reevaluate where we’re heading. This pandemic forced me to do just that. I was finally able to get a clear vision and make sense of some things. Once I was able to truly turn to the Lord, He lifted the veil and I was able see things from a different perspective – God’s perspective. That was when I was able to understand why I had to go through the things I’ve experienced in the last several years. As challenging, painful, and uncomfortable as it was (and still is) to go through all of it there was purpose behind it all. Not just in these positions but overall my experiences in life. By His grace, it has transformed me into the person I am today and it has prepared me for what He’s called me to. The vision He gave me is no longer on the back burner and I know there’s so much more He’s calling me to.Read More »
Ever felt like throwing in the towel?! Ever felt tired of fighting?! Ever felt like your faith & hope in God was literally hanging from a thread & all you wanted to do was give up?!
As I shared on my previous post, 2019 was by far the most challenging year I’ve had & not a day went by that I didn’t wake up feeling anxious, tired & defeated. Every day felt like it was on repeat.
Everyday consisted of waking up at 6am to prepare a bottle of milk for my 2 yr old before I got myself ready for the day, make sure my oldest was up & out the door by 8am, I would drop the baby off at the sitter while Edison dropped our oldest son off at school & I would head to work. I would wait for my oldest to walk to my job from school, go on my lunch break at 3pm, pick up the baby at the sitter & stop to get them something to eat before dropping them both off to my grandmother. There goes my hour of lunch only to get out of work at 7pm, 8pm or even 9pm sometimes. Once I got home, I was lucky if I had 10 mins in the shower with zero interruptions. It would be around 11pm by the time I finally hit the bed & do it all over again the very next day.
I came across this song today on my playlist & I was reminded of the day I heard it for the first time. I had this song on repeat for 2 days straight because I resonated with it so much. That same day I had taken some time to journal & I remember telling God, “Take me deeper, Lord.” I desired to know Him deeply & intimately. I felt as though I had only known Him on a surface level but I wanted to go deeper. Mannnnn, I didn’t realize how bold of a statement that was when I made it.
I was anticipating for 2019 to be an amazing year despite how 2018 ended but instead it was the most challenging year thus far. It wasn’t until recently that I felt a shift finally take place in my mind, my heart & in my spirit.
I’ve come across messages that have blessed me immensely throughout my journey but this message today was so timely. Only God knows! There are truly no words to describe the faithfulness & power of God. It’s an experience one must have for themselves.
It’s been over a year since my last post & I’ve hesitated in posting due to my own insecurities, fears, doubts, shame, pride & challenges I’ve been facing in my personal relationship with the Lord, my marriage, my family, my job & the list goes on.
I felt led to share this post & this video today in hopes that you would be blessed just as I have. My transformation begins TODAY & I pray it begins with you too. I pray that He would be glorified as we are flourishing in His Grace!! 💕🌻
I know it’s only the 3rd day of 2019 but …
Maybe you experienced a loss of some sort.
Maybe you received a bad report or terrible news.
Maybe you are still experiencing the same problems that you were facing in 2018.
Maybe something or someone has gotten in the way of the goals and desires you set for this New Year.
Maybe you had zero expectations for this New Year.
Maybe you are not as hyped or as motivated as you were seconds before the ball dropped.
Maybe you are battling the same struggles that you swore up and down that you would conquer in 2019.
If I can be honest …Read More »
Before I head out from work, I wanted to quickly share these words with you:
KEEP PRESSING ON!!
These last several weeks have been HARD but I finally had a breakthrough yesterday. It’s awesome to have someone in your corner that will not be afraid to intercede (also known as intervene on behalf of another) and pray for you when you don’t even have the strength to do so. Of course, you want to always turn to God as we are instructed to in 1 Peter 5:7. It tells us to give all our worries and cares to God, for He cares about us.
Have you ever felt like you would give anything to get away, far away, just you and God? Away from distractions? Away from responsibilities? Away from people? Away from your own thoughts and emotions?
Yupp!! That’s what I’m experiencing right now. But yet I am alone in my car and instead of taking this time to spend with God, I’m here blogging instead. It’s foolish of me to continue typing because minutes before I pulled my phone back out to type all of this I was just saying outloud, “I want more of You, God. I just want more of You.”
But then minutes before that I was looking through my contacts checking to see who I can call to speak to or to text before tossing my phone into my bag. Are you kidding me?!? I wanna smack myself for this foolishness.
Lately, I’ve been in an emotional roller coaster. One minute I’m feeling encouraged and on fire for God and then the next minute I’m feeling discouraged and stagnant. But I’m grateful that I can always turn to God and He is the same at all times. His grace is truly sufficient and He always finds a way to remind us of this truth. I pray this devotional and song blesses you as it blessed me. 💕🌻
“The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord,
And He delights in his way.” Psalms 37:23
Some of you are wondering how God is going to get you from where you are today to where He wants you to be. How can He get us from where we are in our current situations, and our current lives to the great destiny, that we know deep in our hearts, God has in mind for us?
Hi Family –
It’s been a while and so much has happened since my last post but I will share a few posts in the near future letting you know all about it but for now I wanted to share the link of a movie my sis and I watched yesterday that truly touched us. I wish I can elaborate but I don’t want to spoil it for you. I will share my thoughts on a future post but I pray it blesses you as it blessed us – Same Kind of Different as Me.
Since I’m here, let me also share a series I’ve been following for the past 4 weeks titled “Planted Not Buried” by Pastor Mike Todd. 😩🙌🏼 Man-O-Man!! What a series this is!
If you haven’t seen his past series titled “Grace Like A Flood“! WOWZERZ!!! That’s all I’m gonna say! This man is truly anointed and has been such a blessing to me!
Okay okay, let me get back to work. Happy Tuesday!! TGIT!!
✌🏼 & 💓,
Jen 🌻
The Journey Within 