🤣 #ImAHotMess But in all seriousness, don’t hold back from being who YOU are. Let me just be clear on something. If you’re rude, disrespectful & your intentions are just malicious then you truly need to look within & ask yourself why that is. That’s not what I’m referring to. What I mean is don’t hold back from being the person you fought so hard to become. Sometimes we feel the need to wear these different masks to satisfy others. Why?!? 🤔
Sometimes Facebook will remind you of some great memories & other times not so great. 2010 was a year full of hurt, emptiness, insecurity, confusion & brokenness. This picture is a reflection of that. Behind that pose, little dress 🙈 & fake smile was a lost soul who was crying out for help. I was engaged but yet entertaining another man. I would care after my son all week & I would go out to dance & drink about every other weekend. It was my definition of being free & having fun. 😣 I had been lied to & cheated on prior to this & I just became heartless. 💔
When I started this blog, I wasn’t sure on how to go about describing myself in the About Me section. I was a bit hesitant because I was concerned about what others might say or think about me but then I faced my fear head on. I CHOSE not to allow those concerns to affect me nor diminish God’s work in me & through me. Anytime I read someone’s blog, I look forward to learning more about who they are & what inspired them to blog. If you feel the same, feel free to click HERE to get to know a little bit about me & what inspired me to start this blog. Also, please be sure to click on the links provided for encouraging resources that have blessed me along the way.
Lord, I am here. In awe of Your love. Thank You for the relationship I get to experience with you on a daily basis. Forgive me for missing the mark each & every day. Thank You for Your grace & Your mercy that sustains me day to day. Thank You for being my Rock on which I stand. Thank You for Your Word that is a Lamp to my feet & a Light to my path. Thank You for being my Help in times of trouble & my Strength when I’m weak. Thank you for being my Comforter & Provider. Have Your way in my life, Lord! May the love I have for you grow deeper & deeper. Don’t allow me to become complacent. Continue to be the lover of my soul. I needed you then, I need you now & I shall need you for the rest of my life. I praise You, Lord. I exalt Your Holy Name. You are worthy to be praised. Thank You, Lord. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen!
As I’ve mentioned many times in the past, I was in a relationship with my ex for almost 5 years. A year into the relationship he lied about being at his sister’s house. The truth was that he was at a “strip club”. Who knows!?! There was no need for him to lie unless he had something to hide (obviously). I didn’t forgive him right away but eventually I let it go because I “loved” him. As women (as some men do as well), we overlook many of the red flags that are being presented to us early on in the relationship only to set ourselves up for failure in the long run.
“So he returned home to his father. And while he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. His son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son.” – Luke 15:20-21
Here’s a story about a son who asks his dad for his inheritance way before it’s time. His father grants his wish & he chooses to go far away & pretty much “lives it up”. After some time has passed, he runs out of all the inheritance that was given to him. He realizes he was better off living with his dad because he had all that he needed. When he finally came to his senses, he realized he had turned his back on his father. He chose the life he thought would be much more satisfying than the life he had been currently living only to leave him feeling empty & lost. When he realized what he had done, he committed himself to go back & ask for His father’s forgiveness. His father had been waiting for him all this time. Once he saw him from a distance, he ran to his son. Embraced him with opens arms & celebrated his return.