It’s been such a long while since my last post but I just felt this strong conviction to share my heart with you & the importance of being in the Presence of God.
As I had this song on repeat today I couldn’t help but be reminded of the night when I entered into God’s Presence with the hopes that He would make a way for something I was believing in Him for.
What I thought would only last 30 mins to an hour, ended up being 4 hrs in His Presence as I worshipped & praised Him. It didn’t start off that way though. I had received some news earlier that day that crushed me to my core. I knew that the only one who could do something about it was God. I remember putting on worship music to set the atmosphere & telling my husband & oldest son to let me be as I stayed up praying. At the end of my time in His Presence, I no longer worried about what I was praying for. Not because I didn’t care or that I had lost hope, but I didn’t realize how desperately I needed His Presence more than what I was asking Him for.
Whether He answered my prayer or not, I knew that there was nothing that could compare to the comfort, peace, strength and joy that I was able to attain by being in His Presence. Being in His Presence consisted of me crying my heart out, pleading with Him, asking Him to do a miracle. Then the posture of my heart shifted inside of me, I started praising Him & asking Him to forgive me for desiring my will over His. I was filled with gratitude. For never turning His back on me. For His consistent pursuit of me. For His grace. His mercy & love. For His Sovereignty. I was overwhelmed with joy. An unspeakable joy. I was filled up with an overflow.
These last several years have been the most transformative years thus far on my journey with Him. And during this pandemic, I’ve been learning to depend on God like never before. There’s nothing & no-one that can bring us joy or peace or give us strength like only the Lord can. There’s no greater guidance, direction, conviction, & revelation like the Word of God & being in prayer provides. For sooooo long, I relied & depended on others to teach me the word of God but there’s no greater teacher than the Holy Spirit. I’m still a work in progress & have a looooong way to go but I know that as long as I keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, I know that I’m in great hands!!
Every day looks different for me. As a wife, a mother, an employee & having an endless amount of responsibilities made it difficult for me to make room for Him but when I worked my schedule around Him as opposed to working Him around my schedule, it was a game changer.
I no longer get discouraged if my time in His Presence doesn’t look the same. Sometimes it’s in the kitchen as I’m making dinner, cleaning the house, in the shower, sitting at my desk at work or in my car during my lunch break. Sometimes it’s an hour. Other times it’s 5 mins. Sometimes it consist of me reading His Word, communicating with Him throughout the day, listening to a sermon or worship. Other times it’s just being still & allowing my tears to speak the words I can’t express. It has nothing to do with the physical setting but all to do with the posture of our heart. For the veil to be lifted from our eyes & see His goodness. To exalt Him. To praise Him. To worship Him. The most beautiful & intimate relationship we could ever have is with the Lord.
My prayer for you is that God would meet you right where you are & immerse you in His Presence.